Commentary on 1 Samuel
Desert Fathers
There was once a brother who was very eager to seek goodness. Being very disturbed by the demon of lust, he came to a hermit and told him about his thoughts. The hermit was inexperienced and when he heard all this, he was shocked, and said he was a wicked brother, unworthy of his monk's habit because he had thoughts like that. When the brother heard this, he despaired, left his cell and started on his way back to the world. But by God's providence, Apollo met him. Seeing he was so upset and sad, he said to him, 'Son, why are you so unhappy?' The brother was very embarrassed, and at first said nothing. But when Apollo pressed him to say what was happening to him, he admitted everything and said, 'It is because lustful thoughts trouble me. I confessed them to that hermit, and he says I now have no hope of salvation. So I have despaired, and am on my way back to the world.' When Apollo heard this, he went on asking questions like a wise doctor, and gave him this counsel, 'Do not be cast down, son, nor despair of yourself. Even at my age and with my experience of the spiritual life, I am still troubled by thoughts like yours. Do not fail now; this trouble cannot be cured by our…
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